I can't tell if this is anxiety but it's most likely paranoia.

13 Year old me: *draws something*

Person: Wow that's so good! You're really talented!

me: okay!

14 Year old me: *draws something*

My thoughts:

Person: why are their eyes pulled out??

P: WOW you're so cringe! r/im14andthisisdeep

P: Are you sick!? Why do you find this fun to draw?!?!?!?!?!?

P: Do you need therapy? Are you depressed or something?

P: That's not blood, that's just a bunch of scribbles!

P: Why is she crying?! Your a psychopath.

P: You think you're so cool and edgy and emo but in reality your just some white girl trying to act quirky

P: Are you supporting violence with this gore?

Person: Can I see your notebook?

me: no

P: why??

me: *just stares at them before looking away*

P: rude.

But in the lovely place that is Newgrounds, nobody cares if you post gore/edgy art because it's the norm and nobody questions your sanity! Although it is annoying that nobody cares if you draw blood when your 13, but when your 14 they go batcrap crazy.

nobody called me cringe when I put this on instagram a little over a year ago, but call me cringe when I drew this a couple of days ago:

like wtf is that logic.

What's the point of detention? To just sit in a boiling room for 25 minuets filling in a sheet on how your organisation is screwed?

So origin story: 2 days ago I was about to go home from school when mum says to me:

"Oh yea by the way you have detention on Friday because of late homework's."

I feel like she was expecting me to get a detention at one point as she didn't seem mad or frustrated. She did tell me not to tell dad about it as his logic is "Just do it."

The school's reasoning on this was:

When you were in the lower school*, you wouldn't be punished as much (even though I got 32 late homework's in the span of 6 months) as you were still adjusting to secondary school, but now you are in middle school**, so stop being a dimwit and remember to write the homework down you moron.

Okay it wasn't worded like that but that's the impression i got off it.

They said that it was mandatory to attend (in the second half of lunch, which if you didn't know is where the lunch line isn't a freaking millipede, so I had to speedrun down the hallways to get to the front of the queue;) so I could "Improve my organisation skills."

Me and 4 other people (including one of my friends) just sat in a quiet room with no air conditioning while I was staring at the clock. The sheet I mentioned earlier had 2 tasks:

• Write down the homework you get each day into the timetable and work out a time to do it (the times on the grid went up to 9 o'clock, like what student is doing homework that late!?)

• Write a paragraph to say how important homework is and how you should get it in on time (yes that's what it actually said, XD)

Except my subjects don't really stick to a timetable, most of them just give homework out whenever they feel like it, so that was fun. When it came to the paragraph I just went on a passionate rant on how I found it annoying that I was being punished for just bad organisation and memory.

It went along the lines of:

Do homework. Idk why but just do homework. Hand in your homework on time so you don't end up in a boiling room writing about how screwed your organisation is. You could be drawing manga right now but nooooo.

The second I was let out, me and my friend went over to my other friend to complain about how boring it was (the teacher literally said at the beginning to complete the sheet slowly because "we were going to be here for a long time.") My friend put for the second question just some polite essay about "how homework was used as a punishment and we should have free time at home" meanwhile I was going on a full on twitter rant while doodling baguettes with wheels on at the corner of the page.

Also we couldn't even keep the timetables at the end so what was the point of that??

Note: I had 6 late homework's from December to March, the one in English was because I forgot to write it down in my planner, the one in Food Tech was because I finished the homework in the lesson but forgot to hand it in and the one in geography was again, because i forgot to write it down in my planner. No idea where the other 3 geography ones came from, maybe my teacher just hates me.

*year 7 and 8 (11-13)

**year 9-11 (13-16)

The great thing about the internet is that you can make fun of someone who has no idea what they're talking about from the comfort of your own home.

So anyway I got into some stupid debate about 2 weeks ago with some idiot and I wanted to make fun of them even more so here we are.

(Context: this was on a blog post about how history isn't taught that well in America and that the natives were there first.)

Many things to point out here:

1. The empires weren't all 'cool', go look up 'The Amritsar massacre' from 1919
2. When they say that 'All Europeans are weak and helpless' they're probably referring to how France and Britain were doing in 1941 and America joined WW2 which helped our side OR could be referring to how the British Empire lost the war of independence due to how hard it was to transport troops and supplies across the Atlantic ocean. I see a lot of Americans bragging about this which doesn't show a balanced view.
3. The movies were E rated but wtf are these thumbnails:

what does 'cucking' mean? Is it like a sexual thing?

I stopped responding after realising how pointless this was. Thats the end of this pathetic tale.

I'm gay, liberal and a Satanist.

I'm pretty much every typical Christian's nightmare.

hahahahahahaaha 69 lol hahahahahahahahahahah

ok i'm done now.

You know those brain dead Americans you see on Facebook and Twitter who are like "go back to your own country this is America speak English" but completely ignore the fact that the ancestors of the white people in the United States were Europeans from west Europe who wanted spices and land for their empire.

Seems a bit hypocritical telling someone that their own country is suddenly not theirs, just because on how they look or how they talk when you aren't native to the country yourself.

And before you go on a rant saying "oh that was decades ago, it doesn't matter" well the same applies to others aswell.

Obviously not all people who live in the USA think this way, I'm just saying this to the idiots out there who appear on r/ facepalm every other Tuesday.

I'm seriously debating to use Scratch full time as I easily understand it and know how to use it well, or use GML which is wayyyyyyy harder to use (ironic as it says 'the learning curve isn't to steep') but can actually be useful in life and hold bigger files? (and also it's more flexible than Scratch but whats the point if you don't even know how to use it?)

I have been using Scratch since i was 7, tried Python 3 when i was 9 (but didn't do much in it as it's mainly just for text only games and crap) at some point learned HTML and CSS and created some basic ass websites (literally just words but in rainbow colours) tried Pygame when i was 13 and quit after spending a month on trying to make a basic walking thing (the amount of reddit posts i made god damm) and now currently I'm trying to learn GML.

The problem of Scratch, a visual block based coding language, being my main from the start is i constantly always think in the logic of Scratch, plus i don't think logically at all means trying to learn any text based coding language almost impossible.

Scratch has it's limitations and can't be used professionally, but when you only know how to code in that specific language it creates problems. I have to rely on subreddits so much and even then i get almost nowhere. People would respond yes, but if you can barley read what they're trying to say because it's so sophisticated and technical then you get nowhere.

Tutorial do exist and I do follow them but it seems no matter how up to date the video is, no matter how clearly it's explained; I still somehow screw up. Most of the time there would be no error, it just wouldn't work the way I want it to. Linking back to the paragraph on subreddits, a similar thing happens there. I'll do what they say and for some reason it just never works and they have to go through their code trying to figure out if they made a mistake.

I want to to coding but it's like asking a penguin to fly, the only way it will is by someone yeeting it across.

It's so god damm annoying.

It's so hard just trying to find any actual good anime, it's all the same formula now: boy that lived a boring life gets transported or recarnated into some fantasy land and they are suddenly an overpowered god.

either that or some boring school slice of life thing.

Maybe i'm just on the wrong side of the internet because it's so hard trying to find any sci-fi animes.

In conclusion: Does anybody know any good sci-fi/action animes?

alright so recently I've been getting these predictions about my future (well this has been happening for about 6 months now) and I didn't believe them at first but now I'm kinda concerned.

it started with me asking how old i'll be when i die, and the first (and strongest to appear) number was 26, and roughly around that time i asked myself when i'll get a girlfriend (as a joke) and i got 18. the reason why i didn't believe this was because i had a crush at the time who i was 99% liked me back; but i started to think more into it after i got rejected but my crush was still showing signs of liking me.

weird how this started at the same time i lost the ability to imaginate in my thoughts (it was kinda hazy before but now i can't imagine objects or images, so the few dreams i have are like a podcast or the 'idea' of something existing) and started linking it to that.

fast forward a couple of months, i was just chilling to some ambient music at 10:00 at night before i was going to bed. then without even asking i got random visions (well more like a voice telling me) that i kill 7 people in 12 years time which freaked me out. it went away after i made 'dormant in the mind' which was based of all that.

i could be completely wrong but considering i know: how i die and the exact date and time i die (15/08/2034 18:48 encase you were wondering) it seems weird for it not to be a warning. it's not all dark, some 'visions' i've seen are more light hearted but it's mainly dark. i'm linking this to my increase of morbid and paranoid thoughts and i don't know what to do so if i kill you in the future then sorry